Jazz Game & Kru's Birthday

Well since I feel like crap and am kind of just lounging today...I decided I need to catch up on my blogging. I'm so behind I'm going to split it up into 2 seperate posts.
Well first of all...to follow up on my last post. VaLayn's funeral was amazing. Very heartbreaking, but the family portrayed her perfectly. I can't believe how much I will miss her. Even more then that, I can't believe how hard it's been to see my best friend hurt so much and not have any way to help. I would give anything to see that happy smile of hers that I miss so much. At this point I just try be there for her and be the best friend I can be. It's so tough. But I know SHE'S tough and will pull through this! I'm so grateful for eternal families! I can't say that enough!!!

Other then that....I've started my new job. It's...different. I'm getting more used it.I think I'm just so comfortable at Madison so it will take time. i can't count how many times a night I hear the F-word. I work with maybe 1 religous person. I guess I'm just used to Madison where 90% of people are LDS, including our Dr's. Plus everything is on paper where as at Madison it's all on computer. BUT... it will be ok. One thing...I was excited about getting better insurance...but as of May 1st. Mtn View's will be way worse! ha ha. figures. At Mtn View the deductible is going up to what ours already is and will cost double what we pay now! Thanks Obama!! ugh.
Anyhow, that next weekend we had our nephew Kru's birthday at our house and it was lots of fun. Jamie decorated really cute, made some awesome meatballs, and a cute cake. We had a good dinner and then did a pinata. The kids all had lots of fun. Then Kru opened presents and we had cake! It was great to have everyone together and I can't believe that Kru is 2 years old. Crazy. I still remember Jamie bringing him home when he was a newborn and living with us. It was definitely a crazy time, but we have lots of good memories.
Mady holding Dax!






Anyhow..After I worked 2 days at Mtn View, we went with my hubby's parents to a Jazz game. It was actually lots of fun and good conversation! We ran in the pouring rain after the game and had dinner. Then we stayed the night at his Aunt's and then came home so I could go to work again! lol. Thanks Jeff and Terri for coming with us!! Hopefully we can do it again when we have more time to play!

It was a close game! 107 to 103. lots of fun!!!




I just had to add a couple pictures of Mady getting her hair cut by Aunt Brigitte. She is such a girl! she loves to be pampered and get her hair and nails done! love that girl. I'm so glad I will have her to do things like that with! I can't belive how big she is getting!


Noah's idea of a day at the beauty shop!

Anyhow...our Park City trip, Easter and Mady's dance recital will be on the next post! Hope everyone had a good Easter weekend!

So Many Questions....

Why do we have to lose people we love?
Why does one family who has lost so much, have to lose more?
and why does each death they have to deal with be so tragic?
Why can't I take the un-bearable pain away from my best friend?
Why can't the knowledge of the gospel and eternal families just erase the pain?

It's been a rough day. My best friend JaLayn's mom died last night. This woman was amazing. They had 11 kids and it never slowed her down for a second. She was the very center of that family and had a relationship with every child and grandchild. She was so giving. She accepted me from day 1, since I was 12 yrs old and always treated me like part of the family. She was at the temple the day I got married, she helped throw my baby shower when I was pregnant with Mady, she helped me and JaLayn make baby blankets for all our babies, she was always interested in my family and my kids. She always had such a positive outlook. A friend from high school told me this today: when VaLayn's son Brand'n died (another tragic story) when me and JaLayn were in Jr. High... she said when she walked through the viewing line, crying and saying how sorry she was, VaLayn hugged her and told her to never be sorry that someone we love is in Heaven with Heavenly Father. Although I know she struggled with it every year, she was so strong and tried to see the positive in things.

I wish I could take away JaLayn's pain. I called her last night, not even knowing this had happened. I didn't feel right when someone answered her phone that I knew wasn't family. she just said, "JaLayn is with her mom" it bothered me all night. I was afraid something had happened to her dad. I called JaLayn twice this morning and then got to dance and didn't see her there. I texted her and then finally her husband, he called me back almost immediately. I was in complete shock, yet somehow I knew something horrible had happened. I didn't expect this. I tried to be there for her tonight and be strong, but I just can't. I don't know how to answer her questions... I don't know how she's going to get through this either. I pray that she knows how much I love her and how awesome of a family she has. She is so much like her mother and should be so proud of that. They were best friends and I KNOW they will be together again. I know that she has a loving Heavenly Father that is watching over her and will not leave her in a time like this. I know that we just need to trust in His plan for all of us. Most of all I know that her mom had a very sweet reunion with Brand'n last night; the son she has missed every day for the last 13 years.
I love you VaLayn...thank you for sharing your heart, your home and your amazing family with me. I will miss you.